at brunch on Saturday, miss beautiful suggested that we have dinner with her friends soon,she would make the reservations at the restaurant. to be honest i do not want to meet her friends,for many reasons,
i am afraid they would judge me
they will only see me as the straight girl that is confusing their friend.
how do i get out of this,i struggled to find excuses,but when i looked into her eyes i saw she really wanted it. urggggggggghhhhhh!why cant i say no?i guess i will go along with it. i just hope that she isn't trying to meet my friends as well,because that isn't going to happen.
all of a sudden my poached eggs looked revolting and my appetite disappeared.
16 comments:
Don't worry...
she chose you to spend time with. She chose you to be with.
Her friends might like you, they might not. All you should really be focused on is the fact that she is proud of you and happy with you.
So happy that she wants to show you off to those people who matter to her.
She digs you like crazy. she wants her people to know that it is you. This is the person that she is comfortable with.
Chill and just be the fabulous person that you are.
I second what Soul just said... just cos i feel so darn vulnerable right now.... shoot!!!!!
It is OK to have fears, dont be too hard on you!
for the first time.. i dont know what to say.. but you might be suprised .. they might see you as a great girl.. who is good for thier friend... so not to worry.. be yourself.
I honestly think you worry too much about what other people think. Nuff said.
ok!
brace urself hun cos u myt hate wat im abt 2 say.
i really thnk its tym u end this 'relationship' with Miss B. She's wonderful and all BUT ur STARIGHT 4 peace sake.
having dreams abt penis and stuff and feelin guilty when ur alone should be tellin u sumtn by now. im tryin 2 be ur voice of reason here and im tellin u this minit...QUIT IT!
miss b is not just up for a fling, shes probably lukin 4 a lifetime partner and u my dear are not.
im sayin all this cos i really do care abt u...lyk 4 real. i dont want miss b hatin u in d end when she finds out uve not really been comfortable with d relationship. U and her myt end up being best of friends if this doesnt work out. by d way, Im surprised she hasnt asked yet if u were comfortable wit d whole thing...i mean she is aware she is ur 1st female lover right?
i honestly feel d longer u go on with this...d harder its goin 2 be 4 u 2 back out.
I might be wrong anyways.
Ur probably just goin thru a phase and u myt get used 2 it lata. i really just thot id chip in my 2 dollars.
After all said and done, ur happiness matters(lyk i always say) but u really need 2 think abt wat ive just told u.
luv ya gurl and keep ur head up.
DO NOT 4GET 2 VOTE 4 ME 4 IDOLS...I really hope u dont hate me now sha.
funny that i mispelled 'straight' when its supposed 2 be d word im laying emphasis on.
@im_a_babe has it occured to you that she might be Bi? I got that impression based on the comment she left on my last blog. Any which way it doesn't really matter so far as she is happy and finds peace and love in her relationship.
ubong da.... bi?? ok i dont think enjoying sexual relations from both gender makes one bisexual...thats my opinion.
many str8 women lyk me find some women attractive but mayb not as far as being in a committed relationship with one.
and wat comment r u talkin abt?
Soul- thank you for always making me feel better and being a support system. its this friday night,i am nervous as hell,you would think it was a job interview!
Ms zee-whats wrong sweetie pie?
Ijeoma- i will be myself,hope they like me.
mochafella- honestly,i think i do worry too much about certain things,especially people i care about to a certain degree.. in person i act very calm and collected like nothing can faze me but i guess when i blog i write about my true inner feelings. i cant help it.
Im A Babe- i understand that you are trying to look out for me,but i feel like if i end up screwed up,hurt or happy i want it to be a part of my own journey in life. my own experience,my own story.
she has asked how uncomfortable or comfortable i am and i tell her sometimes about my doubts other times i dont because i dont want her thinking she is forcing me because she isnt in anyway. she is aware she is my first as well.i will put your opinion into consideration thanks for caring sweetie! luv you too! and i did vote for you! look at you singing lil diva! lol
i dont hate you! your just trying to be a voice of reason.
Ubong Da- i dont want to be categorized, my sexuality is something i dont want to be placed in a box,straight,gay,bi etc. i like men,i just happen to be in a relationship with a woman right now.
Ubong Da- oh and thanks for the kind words,really appreciate it
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